something to say in a subtle way

okay. i can't sleep. but i just have one more thing to say before i go.

what is wrong with you?! i really don't get it. why? hahaha.

are u blind or something? can't you at least pick what suits you best?

i just don't understand. hahaha. well... good luck with that. that's all i can say. :)

More confused than ever over one trivial thing...

thursday night until friday morning i was contemplating whether i'm gonna visit ryan's mom or not. of course, i sincerely plan to but my car is coding. argh. if i was to leave the house, i should be there before 7am. meaning, i had like just 2 hours of sleep if i was to leave the house past 5am. talk about haggard-ness. haha. so i asked him, what do u think? should i go friday or saturday?

another concern was that my family is going to nueva ecija and i wanted to go with them... so i was really torn apart. i kept texting him i'm going then take it back, then text him again saying i'll go then take it back again. it went on and on until i fell asleep on a final note that i wasn't. haha. i even consulted my brother on what i should do when he arrived at 2:30am. if i wasn't coding, i could have gone friday, right? then i could leave with my family saturday...

hmm... so what happened was, i woke up past 10am (friday) then i saw his messages saying his mom is fine and all, what a relief. he was really worried last night, he even asked me to look up his horoscope to fish on what could happen to his mom. so what i did was i got horoscopes for that day and the next. hahaha. i kept on telling him not to worry much but knowing how praning he can get, i just kept reassuring him, even bringing back past stories when my mom and lola got hospitalized but made it out healthier than ever. it somehow gave him optimism. hehe.

anyway, in a few hours, my family will be leaving. and i'll be all alone. now i can go and visit his mom at the expense of not being able to join my family aww... well, i just wanna be there for him like he was for me during all those time when i felt my whole world was crashing down on me. aww... i know this entry is getting mushier than ever so i'm sorry for all those who read it. haha. i just had no one to talk to right now since everyone's asleep including him. aww... so trivial as it may seem... sinisisi ko ang pesteng plate number. *bow*