something to say in a subtle way

okay. i can't sleep. but i just have one more thing to say before i go.

what is wrong with you?! i really don't get it. why? hahaha.

are u blind or something? can't you at least pick what suits you best?

i just don't understand. hahaha. well... good luck with that. that's all i can say. :)

More confused than ever over one trivial thing...

thursday night until friday morning i was contemplating whether i'm gonna visit ryan's mom or not. of course, i sincerely plan to but my car is coding. argh. if i was to leave the house, i should be there before 7am. meaning, i had like just 2 hours of sleep if i was to leave the house past 5am. talk about haggard-ness. haha. so i asked him, what do u think? should i go friday or saturday?

another concern was that my family is going to nueva ecija and i wanted to go with them... so i was really torn apart. i kept texting him i'm going then take it back, then text him again saying i'll go then take it back again. it went on and on until i fell asleep on a final note that i wasn't. haha. i even consulted my brother on what i should do when he arrived at 2:30am. if i wasn't coding, i could have gone friday, right? then i could leave with my family saturday...

hmm... so what happened was, i woke up past 10am (friday) then i saw his messages saying his mom is fine and all, what a relief. he was really worried last night, he even asked me to look up his horoscope to fish on what could happen to his mom. so what i did was i got horoscopes for that day and the next. hahaha. i kept on telling him not to worry much but knowing how praning he can get, i just kept reassuring him, even bringing back past stories when my mom and lola got hospitalized but made it out healthier than ever. it somehow gave him optimism. hehe.

anyway, in a few hours, my family will be leaving. and i'll be all alone. now i can go and visit his mom at the expense of not being able to join my family aww... well, i just wanna be there for him like he was for me during all those time when i felt my whole world was crashing down on me. aww... i know this entry is getting mushier than ever so i'm sorry for all those who read it. haha. i just had no one to talk to right now since everyone's asleep including him. aww... so trivial as it may seem... sinisisi ko ang pesteng plate number. *bow*

BLAH BLAH BLAH

When it's over, it really is
Don't you ever attempt, even the slightest bit
To revive something you used to have
Because now it's gone

There's no point in turning back
So don't even try to say a word
For you deserve nothing more
But a handful of regrets

You may say life's cruel
Well it just came back at you
You may be bitter for all I care
When it's done, it's done... so just be gone

Plans

Ryan and I just got back from Tagaytay and now we're planning yet another get-away for Valentine's Day. I immediately thought of Ilocos as our destination but it's too far and I suppose we won't be allowed to go there alone. Then he suggested to visit Corregidor. :) I looked it up and made a call. So I guess we'll be going there. I'm not that sure though. I really hope this trip pushes through!!! I'm so excited. :)

Who's the loser now?

Hahahahaha!!!

HAPPINESS... As I See It

Being able to say you're happy means you have been through both sad and happy times.

So now, you are able to distinguish one from the other. Meaning, when you say you're happy, it must be true since you now know the difference between the two.

When you're happy, you expect others to at least be happy for you and not for them to question your happiness. It gets kinda frustrating but guess what... you don't have to prove anything to anyone. Them haters should just shove their pathetic thoughts up their %%%. Hahaha!

Well... that's it. I just had to say something about it. I cannot say anything more.

If I Were A Boy

i really love this song. when i first saw it on tv last december, i noted it down for downloading. however i just didn't find the time to do so until today when we bought an ipod for adjie. i searched for its lyrics and i loved it even more. girls, read the lines carefully - the song would really make you wish you were a boy at some point. *wink*

If I Were A Boy lyrics

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…