It's been a long time. But right now, I just wanted to write something so that maybe I can let some of it out. Today, I woke up really late for my dentist appointment. Not surprisingly, she was also late. I waited for about an hour or so only to be told that maybe I should set another appointment some other day since the dentist won't be coming very soon. I was really pissed because I hurriedly got out of bed even though I was still sleepy just so I could get there when the dentist is so not coming. I knew it was gonna be a bad day ahead from the dental clinic mishap. Oh, even from the moment I woke up since I rarely wake up late for important things I should attend to.
Ryan was also running late. He was supposed to be there by 11am but he overslept. I didn't get mad because I knew he had to sleep since he was tired at work. We headed to the eye doctor to have my eye checked out because there still remains a small lump under my eyelid after my "kuliti" back in April.
I was surprised to know that I was going to be operated. I was scared and a bit shaken up because I came there for a consult. The last thing I had in mind was to go through an operation especially with the fact that my mom wasn't there with me. Ryan was but you know it's different having your mom around during those times.
It hurt a lot. But the doctor was very nice. I just hope my eye gets better. I am supposed to remove the bandage tomorrow. It's hard to deal with life with only one eye, having my left eye covered. I'm just glad that Ryan was there running back and forth to the atm machine to get me some more money because what I initially brought wasn't enough to pay for the operation bill.
My mom and I got into a fight over the phone and I feel guilty because I shouldn't have said all the things I said that hurt her a lot when I know that she is gonna suffer by being forced to pay for my bills and medications since I am jobless. It's sad because she's celebrating her 57th bday 2 days from now and I've been such a jerk.
I'll have to make it up to her. I hope things get better soon.
Now my eye hurts a bit, but I hurt even more. Awts. Til next time.
