Another long *sigh*. I am so frustrated. Some have achieved while others have failed. But today, what made it worse is that they still think I'm this little girl who cannot take care of herself. I am already 21 years old. Of legal age - even to gamble. But I'm not even talking about "me-wanting-to-enter-the-casino" gamble. I want to gamble with my life. I want to take full charge of it because this is mine. I'm not a kid anymore and people just have to realize that.
I know they care so much about me but their caring tends to be suffocating. I know they aren't strict and all but what they are doing to me is making my mind go crazy with all their talk. And so I'd rather lock myself up inside my room and only go out whenever I'm hungry or thirsty. Sometimes I even eat and drink inside my room only to avoid hearing what they have to say that I already know. Sigh.
I appreciate what they are trying to do but please, let me be. I know what's right from what is wrong. So let me decide on my own. I don't need anybody telling what to do because it only numbs my ears. I've heard it all before and I don't need to hear it again. I wish to get older so they may finally let go of me.
It's not funny anymore. I just wanna be with the person I love and each time I go out of the house, people keep asking me where I'm going. If I tell them I'm going out with him, would they let me? I don't think so. Because they keep negative thoughts in their minds about where I'm going and what I'm gonna do. I don't wanna lie. I just can't tell them everything because they wouldn't understand. It's just so frustrating. Sigh.
I wanna be free. I thought I was but still I'm tied down for only God knows how long. :( This is a sad life. Being with him is the only happiness I get. I wouldn't want anyone to take that away from me. Please, I beg of you. Set me free.
