I won an Ipod Shuffle!!! :)

By playing basketball on Jobstreet, I won one and it's purple and so cute. I didn't actually play for the prize. In fact, I didn't even know it was a contest. Haha. I just wanted to play the game since it was sponsored by Accenture. :)

Wednesday morning, I received a call saying that I won. Wahahaha!!!

However, I dropped it at the parking lot this evening, I'm glad it's still working perfectly though it now has some minor scratches. Awts. Just a day old but already wounded. Wahahaha!!!

That's it. Just wanted to share. :)

thinking

another monday. start of yet another looong week. it's the last week of training before we begin taking calls. i'm scared but i'm determined to be at the top of my game. i am very determined to make it right this time. even in my dreams, i see myself on training. am i getting addicted to it? i don't think so. maybe i'm just pushing myself too hard. i know i'm not supposed to put that much pressure on myself. it's just that i don't wanna get left behind. i wanna be the best at something. and i guess this is a good starting point. everyone knows it's not gonna be easy. but what the heck, i'll try my very best.

like i said, i feel like everything is falling into place. on that note though, i was threatened yet again by my lola's health. a few days back, i brought her to the emergency clinic since her bp was awfully low. and i was told by the doctor to have her confined. it was really scary for me because that was the last thing i had in mind. my lola was very frustrated that day. she even said, "mamatay na kung mamamatay...". i got really worried but my mom told me my lola was doing just fine and she decided not to bring her to the hospital, we observed instead.

fortunately, it didn't get serious. she's doing fine these days. i'm so glad she didn't have to be confined once again.

alright, hmm, what else? i'm starting to worry about us. we seem to be so perfect and it really feels good. however, i see relationships experiencing so many problems while ryan and i's relationship seems to be flawless - that it sometimes makes me think it's too good to be true. but i am so happy that i have complete and unconditional trust in him and this puts a stop to my worrying. i am sure everything is gonna be fine in the future, like the way it is now or even better.

i just wish for all the other couples out there to be as happy as we are. :) i'm not saying we don't have problems at all. you know, we do encounter some arguments at some point but it never gets worse. they remain just as silly as they are, until we laugh it out and everything goes back to normal - happiness. :)

well, life is good. at least for now. i hope it remains constant, if not... i expect it to be so much better. :)

Updates

it's been a looong time since I last created a blog containing juicy details regarding my life. i know you deserve to know what has happened since that dreadful day.

i am pleased to inform everyone that my lola is now doing fine. she spent 15 days at the hospital and it's a miracle how she was able to quickly recover from her stroke. now, she can move all by herself - without anyone paying close attention to her every move. i am so thankful to God for her speedy recovery. i couldn't thank Him enough. also, i would like to express my utmost appreciation for all the people who prayed for her as she went through all her suffering. my family wouldn't have made it if it weren't for all of you. thank you so much.

alright. now what about me? well, all i could say right now is that i am doing just fine. i'm still with ryan and the fire is still alive - not that it's ever gonna die. i know it's gonna burn forever. for as long as we both shall live. ryan held my hand through everything. he was there whether i needed him or not. thank you ryan for always being patient with me even though i didn't deserve any of it.

oh, and i have a job now. i can say that it's a "job" but i'm looking forward to calling it as my "career". i'm excited to get myself moving into the right direction and finally, i'm feeling that everything is working out just the way it should be.

i appreciate my life more. not only was i given another chance to spend more time with mama, i was also given another chance to start working again - giving me that sense of independence of some sorts.

there maybe a lot of obstacles along the way, patiently waiting for me to make my moves, but i'm absolutely sure that i'm gonna make it out of here alive. i may be wounded but love itself heals them all. and right now, my life is definitely full of love, thus happiness. :)

i'm wishing the same for all of you.

uh-oh

so much to feel...

...got nothing to say

I never...

I said I wanted my freedom.

But I never asked for whatever or whoever that holds me back to be taken away.

I said I wanted them to treat me like a young adult.

But I never thought I would cry like a baby on this fateful day.

I said I loved my family so much.

But I never thought my love for them was this deep.

I said I'm gonna be brave when the time comes.

But I never really was prepared for any of this.

I said I wouldn't have time to blog due to being busy doing a lot of things for tomorrow.

But I never realized how much it helps to release my tension through writing.

I said I love her and that I don't want her to suffer.

But I never said I'm gonna let go.

I will hold on to you Mama for as long as I could. So please hold me back and don't you ever let go.

Before July ends...

3 more days and it's August. I just felt that I needed to blog some more. I really have nothing important to say. I just thought of writing anyway.

Day after day after day is wasted just by doing nothing significant. Except for all those days - you know, those that I love. :)

So, what can I say? Hmm, I'm really frustrated I guess. Of the things that I want but can't have for now, maybe I should wait a little bit more. For all we know, it's just around the corner - waiting for the perfect time. :)

I dunno. I want everything to be in place. But I can't seem to make everything right. It's like waiting for something that's never gonna happen. It's really uncertain but I'm still hoping. I believe that an undying hope for something great is what gets you there. Just believe and it will come to you. :)

Yesterday... Today... Tomorrow... and all the days after

Yesterday, I held a garage sale. :) It was fun but it was also too hot outside. Argh!

Today, I got something I really wanted back. Yehey! At the expense of you know who. Kinda feeling guilty but I am sure I can repay him in many ways. :)

Tomorrow, I think I'm gonna start something really cool. I hope it turns out great!!!

all the days after that? I don't know. But I'm sure he'll always be by my side. Through everything, I know he'll be there. :) Yesssssssssssssssssssssssss!!! :)