i hate goodbyes

well i guess everyone does. but not as much as i do. everyone can tell that i am overly sensitive. i could never deny that no matter how hard i try. it's bad enough that i'm feeling sick today, what made it worse was that nasty comment. i guess it was just a misunderstanding. but i was hurt whichever way you put it. i am a person with very low self-esteem. i haven't accomplished much in life that i could be proud of. so yes, i am very insecure. i tend to keep to myself and open up only to carefully chosen people, those i could surely trust. well, today was supposed to be happy. but it went kinda awful.

it's true what peyton sawyer said: people always leave. you cannot count on them to be there for you forever. one day, you'll find yourself all alone and it's sad and frustrating and it will almost make you wanna give up but you gotta stand on your own feet and deal with it. otherwise you will lose it all. everything you've worked hard for. yes, it's difficult. yes, things may kinda go crazy. you will probably cry in front of people or choose to hide your emotions. but either way, you'll have to deal with it on your own. you're lucky if you have a family like mine. they always make me wanna bring out the best in me despite the challenges that come my way.

i hate goodbyes.

i wish there never was any of it in this world. but what kind of world is that? if everything was perfect, then there'd be no motivation left in our souls to keep going. so i guess obstacles are what we really need for us grow as individuals.