I must be on the road to success...

The first quarter of this year has just ended and I feel like I want to start a new life - something different and exciting, something more challenging. I have always stayed within my comfort zone because I was afraid to get hurt by stepping out of it. With my recent trips, I realized there's just so much more to experience. So much more to conquer, and if I don't start now, I won't be able to experience the world fully. To do this, I need resources and support - encouragement that I'd be able to succeed.

I have set too many boundaries before and now I'm taking them down. I know there's just so much more out there and I wanna prepare myself for the big change. I'm not a little girl anymore so I wanna be free. I know it's sad and it can get frustrating at times but you gotta do what you gotta do. People ought to take some chances at some point, otherwise their lives will be filled with nothing but regret. Wishing they had done it but chose not to. I don't wanna have any regrets. I wanna live fully. I wanna do so many things and I think there won't be much time left if I keep this up.

Many will question me for this decision, but hey, this isn't final yet. Things can change within this year - we've gone through only 1/4 of it. The rest is up to God. I know he'll take me places because I deserve it. Clearly, I know it's gonna be a difficult journey to success but I'm willing to sacrifice because I'm sure that I will reap countless rewarding experiences afterwards.

No one ever chooses the path to failure, but somehow, along the road to success, you lose your way and end up sobbing because life turned out to be that hard and swept you away to the other side leaving you helpless and empty-handed. I really hope this doesn't happen to me.

My Unforgettable Trip to South Korea

My friend and I booked a flight to Incheon almost 5 months ago. It was an impulse purchase. We didn't have any guardians - not that we're not legally considered as adults, but because we felt we were going to a strange place, just me and her. I was ecstatic, and counted the days til our trip. I started wanting to travel to Korea since the Boys Over Flowers phenomenon began. I loved the drama so much to the point that I wanna go and see where it happened - not the exact places they filmed at, but the country itself. I wanted to see for myself how it was like in their divided country. Koreans are genuinely nice. I do not see why they would clash with each other, hence the division of North and South. I haven't gotten into the history but taking into consideration their warmth and hospitality, I cannot understand why they would go against one another. Anyway, enough about that. I'll probably research on that later on. We got there at night and it was freezing cold at 1 degree. I was stunned. I didn't expect it was that cold even though I checked the weather forecast for our travel period. We immediately changed clothes right after getting off the plane then took a long bus ride to our hotel. It seemed like the longest walk on earth from the bus stop to our hotel because the temperature made it such a burden. Coming from the Philippines, one isn't used to this kind of cold. The most we could get is a 16 degree airconditioning system which doesn't compare to a 1 degree enviroment. I also came from Singapore before coming to Korea and it was even hotter in SG than in Manila. What a way to torture my body.

(Incheon Airport)

On our first day, we went on a mapless journey on foot. We walked and walked, shopped here and there and decided to have lunch and some rest only after 6 hours. I felt like I lost so much weight counting all the steps I must have taken for that 6 hours. We were exhausted but it was too cold therefore we didn't sweat at all. We had lunch and did some more shopping then decided to take a cab back to the hotel because we think we've lost our way and we were too tired to walk back.

(On our way to Namdaemun Market)

On day 2, we went to the Gyeongbokgung Palace, which, if I remember correctly, is the biggest one. It was tiring to try to walk around the entire place but it was beautiful. We went to see what they had in the museum for a few minutes and headed to the N Seoul Tower. It was frustrating that the cable cars didn't work that time. I so wanted to ride the cable car because of BOF - where Jan Di and Jun Pyo spent their first night together. They probably cancelled the cable car rides during that time because of safety reasons - due to the cold weather.

(Gyeongbokgung Palace)

(N Seoul Tower)

On day 3, we went to Lotte World. It was a weekend so we had to wait in long lines just to experience each ride. I would have tried everything if we went on a weekday.

(Lotte World - Magic Island)

On day 4, we went to Everland Resort. I wanted to go to this place because of We Got Married, another Korean show. My crush, Kim Hyun Joong, took the T Express with Hwang Bo so I wanted to try it myself - and I did. It was the first thing I searched for. It was awesome and I met cool friends while waiting in line. I remember the guy's name. It's Lee Sol Jae, if I spelled it right. They were very nice - he and his girlfriend. I wish I have gotten their Facebook details so we could keep in touch. Too bad I didn't.

(Everland)

(New Friends)

On day 5 which was our last day, we did some last minute shopping and my friend bought a camera. I wanted to buy too but I wanted a real camera. It was like this polaroid camera but it's Fuji. It's pink and it's cute. I could have bought one but decided not to. I felt sad leaving Seoul. I loved it so much and I wanna go back soon. And yes, just this afternoon, I booked another ticket. But it's not until next year. So I guess I'll have to wait a little longer. But surely, it's gonna be worth the wait because I'm coming with my mom and Ryan.

(On our way home... sad...)

Will try to write more about my experience in Korea soon. Tata!

Me :)

what most people don't know about me:

- i don't eat much, but i get fat easily (seriously, you guys think i'm masiba but i'm really not, magana lang talaga ako kumain hihihi)
- i love to sing!!! (but i'm shy, so i sing to myself)
- i could be conyo too (pa-jologs lang talaga ako hahaha, i'm saving it for interviews and stuff hahaha)
- i can't get over jacob black (este taylor lautner)
- i used to looove the backstreet boys (i know their every song, geez!)
- i play nice almost all the time (even when i'm super pissed)
- uber paranoid
- lola's girl
- i could take pix of my dog all day long
- sicky
- the reason why i'm coming to korea is because of boys over flowers :)
- i always go for the underdog (jacob=dog haha)
- hates know-it-alls
- ma-pride
- walang magawa sa buhok
- currently having wardrobe problems (wala ng kasha eh aww)
- quitter unless pushed (so push me harder!)
- impulsive
- loves to dance but isn't good at it aww
- wishes she had lady gaga's voice
- my ultimate dream career: to sing and get paid for it, i think i could do it all day, non-stop coz it's what i love! :)


if you know all these things about me, then we're tight! hahaha we're probably bestfriends or lovers so you shouldn't have wasted time reading this haha! til my next post. see ya!

random things

my mom is eyeing the new chevy spark, i hope someday i can buy her a car. she's always the one buying me stuff so i wanna be rich enough to get her a new car. in 2006 she bought me a car and i couldn't be any happier. :) so i wanna return the favor soon. so help me GOD. i really don't need much right now. it's just those times when i get too impulsive without thinking about the consequences of my unplanned spending. before the week ended, i was really upset and i needed a quick upper so i bought a shirt and necklace from the nearby tiangge during lunch break hahaha.

a few weeks ago, i met a very pleasant man - the former DGM. i don't know but i really think he's nice just by listening to what he had to say during the seminar. and he shook my hand not once, but twice. hahaha. i forgot what was "nice to meet you" in japanese so i just smiled back at him.

a month ago, i think, i had the scariest dream ever. i was in moa when a tsunami came and swept us away. i was pretty sure i died in that dream. i guess the recent typhoons are partly to blame for this terrifying dream. typhoon santi scared me more than ondoy because my locked door opened itself due to the strong wind.

i don't like bree buckley and elle from gossip girl. elle is also renee in one tree hill. she played two slut roles. why? hehehe. also the new girl from mercy west who has been bugging alex karev.

when the shuttle drivers use their radio i often hear "mike delta" which i think stands for mcdo. "sting ray", "delta sierra", "don robert", etc. what are they trying to say? hahaha. i can't stop thinking about it. hahaha...

i can't find my eye medication - tobradex, where are you? come back to me. i found out someone is named "ernalyn" damn, how does it feel to have a name synonymous to shit? peace! it's just that gay people call shit erna hahaha.

what does *67 do?

oh no it's monday again! gotta go!

i hate goodbyes

well i guess everyone does. but not as much as i do. everyone can tell that i am overly sensitive. i could never deny that no matter how hard i try. it's bad enough that i'm feeling sick today, what made it worse was that nasty comment. i guess it was just a misunderstanding. but i was hurt whichever way you put it. i am a person with very low self-esteem. i haven't accomplished much in life that i could be proud of. so yes, i am very insecure. i tend to keep to myself and open up only to carefully chosen people, those i could surely trust. well, today was supposed to be happy. but it went kinda awful.

it's true what peyton sawyer said: people always leave. you cannot count on them to be there for you forever. one day, you'll find yourself all alone and it's sad and frustrating and it will almost make you wanna give up but you gotta stand on your own feet and deal with it. otherwise you will lose it all. everything you've worked hard for. yes, it's difficult. yes, things may kinda go crazy. you will probably cry in front of people or choose to hide your emotions. but either way, you'll have to deal with it on your own. you're lucky if you have a family like mine. they always make me wanna bring out the best in me despite the challenges that come my way.

i hate goodbyes.

i wish there never was any of it in this world. but what kind of world is that? if everything was perfect, then there'd be no motivation left in our souls to keep going. so i guess obstacles are what we really need for us grow as individuals.

the search for the right keyboard

last week i bought a new keyboard for my tv use. since it was the notebook type, i thought it would be much better since i'm used to my laptop keys. however, the keys were designed in a said a-shape because the human hand is supposed to be positioned that way, not the straight way we've all gotten used to. so i practiced using it while i facebooked all day long taking care of my farm and while keeping myself updated with all the news about my family and friends. however, i found myself kinda tired by forcing my hand to stay that way for me to be able to press the right keys as i typed. also, the fact that it wasn't positioned properly since it wasn't elbow-level made it even harder for me. so before the weekend, i planned to have it replaced by the standard keyboard that my hands have grown accustomed to especially now i have been using the standard one at the office.

i came back to the store to look for a replacement however, they didn't have one. so i decided to purchase something that isn't branded from cdr-king. it's cheap and i don't think i would mind that much if it didn't work out between the two of us. hehehe. as for the replacement issue, my mom got new creative speakers in exchange for my initial keyboard purchase. so much for farmville on my tv, i had to go through long lines just to find the "perfect" keyboard which i don't think exists. hahahaha.

my mom and i grabbed some food before we left the mall and here i am now, writing a blog just for the sake of testing my new brand-less keyboard from cdr-king. i hope it lives for at least a year or so. hahahaha.

that's about it. i'm hoping for a great day ahead. cheers! ;)

ps: these cuties would have made my day. hahahahaha. can someone give me one of these please? hehehehe. :)

i'm mad, yes i am - coz you're a bitch, yes you are

to y'all bitches who don't seem to treat me right, i've had enough. now y'all must get the treatment you deserve. i've been nice to y'all, still you treat me like shit. i smile all the time to encourage you to smile back but to no avail. this isn't high school. this is real life for christ's sake. damn. didn't you know it takes more muscles to frown than to smile? plus the fact that it's just plainly much more pleasant than bitching around. i just don't get it. y'all aren't even great yet. great ones are expected to have unreachable egos. but you? heck no. must i put you in the right place or shall you do it yourselves? humility gets you to places. admit your mistakes and don't dare to cover them up and rant about irrelevant shit just deviate from the main subject. i'm no hater, you are. i do not want to live through the day when i'll have to please you when it obviously makes me wanna vomit. trust me, i won't be there to save your ass. i'll just let you fall flat on your face to make you realize how a bad a person you've become. maybe then you'll wake up one morning and decide to fix your life. i, too, can wear pretty clothes, carry expensive bags, walk the walk and talk the talk. i don't even need to put that much make-up, and i'll be better off than you. so just quit it. - just some mad thoughts *peace*