MATT GIRAUD FOREVER!!!

I love Matt!!! He reminds me of how I felt for Elliott Yamin starting from the very first audition til the season progressed. Humble but super talented. I am hoping he wins this season. Compared to Danny and Adam, I think Matt is the best - soulful and classy! :)

I hope I can vote for him too. Aww. :(

I miss Elliott!!! Come back here!

I aslo like Megan a lot. I hope she stays. I'm guessing it's Michael Sarver's turn to go, if not, uh-oh - it's gonna be a big surprise tomorrow!!! Can't wait! Good luck everyone. :)

Eliminations - 1st Round

This season, I'm really having a hard time choosing who to send home. They're all very talented unlike in past seasons when it was somehow such an ease to think of someone who wouldn't make the cut in a snap of a finger.

But last night, I was just so nervous for all of them. All of them were great but I must agree, Jasmine and Jorge didn't pick songs that best suited their voice and personality. I'm feeling really sad that their journey was cut short. I just can't help but feel sorry for both of them since they looked sincerely nice. Very humble and seems to be unaware of how much talent they've got. I've never been a fan of overconfident people no matter how great they are because if they're that great, then there's certainly no reason to brag or show off, right?

Well, all the best for Jasmine and Jorge - I hope they continue pursuing their dream.

My Welcome Back Cake

I got back from Hongkong last Friday and yesterday Ryan came with a box of cake in his hands. My mom was like, "Ano yang hawak mo?" Kasi wala namang occasion or anything. Haha. Yun pala it's my welcome back cake. So I said, aalis na nga lang ako lagi para lagi akong may cake. Hahaha.

But seriously, I think it's so sweet of him to go out of his way just to bring me something. Aww. I love him so much. He's the greatest guy ever! :) I missed him everyday I was away. Thanks Yanyan! :)

Are we still *sweet*?

I asked.

"Yes, of course we are!," he said sincerely then hugged me tight.

"Well, that's all I needed to hear." then I sighed with a smile. :)

Hit and Run

okay. i'm really really extremely sorry i hit your car - or so it seems

i didn't hurt anyone (aside from the feelings of the owner of that car who probably knows now that someone hit his car which happens to be parked at the worst place he could have thought of)

i was backing and i didn't see it. wow! it was right there and i didn't notice it - well, until i heard my car smash against something!

we didn't even look back. my mom said we had to leave the scene right away so no one could get a glimpse of my plate number - oh yes, it's my plate number once again, always the culprit. hahaha

i immediately checked out the damage of my car and i found something really noticeable. i was like wtf? how hard was it? did i ruin that other person's car that bad? or even worse?

i was freaking out. then ate laida told me that the damage on my car which i thought was caused by my carelessness was made by adjie. (he didn't even bother to let me know, what a ****?!!!) ate laida said that while my car was silently parked inside the garage, my brother was trying to park the van and he hit my car coz he was supposedly drunk that morning. she said the whole thing has been there since december. wtf? i didn't even notice it at all.

so i guess, i never really hit a car. but i ran away. i was really scared. i checked out my car if i had any other new damages (ha! i have a lot you know), and i found out there were none, so i was thinking, what was that that i hit? was it just a piece of can lying around? i dunno - really.

i'm just hoping i didn't really hit someone else's car. if i did, i'm so sorry i was too chicken-sh*t to run away. i know i'm a girl and all but that's no excuse. i should know how to drive carefully. but i must admit, i can be a crazy driver most of the time.

so drive safely girls and boys! :)

something to say in a subtle way

okay. i can't sleep. but i just have one more thing to say before i go.

what is wrong with you?! i really don't get it. why? hahaha.

are u blind or something? can't you at least pick what suits you best?

i just don't understand. hahaha. well... good luck with that. that's all i can say. :)

More confused than ever over one trivial thing...

thursday night until friday morning i was contemplating whether i'm gonna visit ryan's mom or not. of course, i sincerely plan to but my car is coding. argh. if i was to leave the house, i should be there before 7am. meaning, i had like just 2 hours of sleep if i was to leave the house past 5am. talk about haggard-ness. haha. so i asked him, what do u think? should i go friday or saturday?

another concern was that my family is going to nueva ecija and i wanted to go with them... so i was really torn apart. i kept texting him i'm going then take it back, then text him again saying i'll go then take it back again. it went on and on until i fell asleep on a final note that i wasn't. haha. i even consulted my brother on what i should do when he arrived at 2:30am. if i wasn't coding, i could have gone friday, right? then i could leave with my family saturday...

hmm... so what happened was, i woke up past 10am (friday) then i saw his messages saying his mom is fine and all, what a relief. he was really worried last night, he even asked me to look up his horoscope to fish on what could happen to his mom. so what i did was i got horoscopes for that day and the next. hahaha. i kept on telling him not to worry much but knowing how praning he can get, i just kept reassuring him, even bringing back past stories when my mom and lola got hospitalized but made it out healthier than ever. it somehow gave him optimism. hehe.

anyway, in a few hours, my family will be leaving. and i'll be all alone. now i can go and visit his mom at the expense of not being able to join my family aww... well, i just wanna be there for him like he was for me during all those time when i felt my whole world was crashing down on me. aww... i know this entry is getting mushier than ever so i'm sorry for all those who read it. haha. i just had no one to talk to right now since everyone's asleep including him. aww... so trivial as it may seem... sinisisi ko ang pesteng plate number. *bow*