New Year's Resolutions (2012)

1. Say no to seat sales.

2. Turn away from expensive food.

3. Do not satisfy cravings every time.

4. Exercise 6 days a week.

5. List down all material items bought in a excel file.

6. Maximum budget for the wedding Php 350,000 (less is more! haha)

7. Eat more fruits

8. Spend more time with family.

9. Spend only 40% of take home pay.

10. Be the best that I can be! What? Haha

* Keep a record for evidence of accomplishment.

Bow!

See you in 2013!

Seoul Captures the Soul

Seoul, Korea is my favorite place on Earth!!!

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This photo was taken on a subway station on our way to the Gyeongbukgung Palace which is the largest among the Five Grand Palaces. My friend and I went to Korea last March 2010 and we really enjoyed our trip. I'm actually coming back in less than two months. ;) I have fallen in love with Seoul because of the climate and the people. Definitely a must-see tourist destination!

Big Fish

why am i so bummed about not earning enough? i really feel like life's not being fair to me. i deserve more - that i am sure of. i shouldn't be in a hurry, i should put in more work, extend my patience. i tell these to myself everyday i force myself to wake up and go to work. for over a year, there have been some trying times. and this is one of them. knowing people who've gone abroad and found success, i can't help but feel sorry for myself for not being brave enough to do the same. i just can't leave my life behind. and most especially, i can't be away from chusy. i used to think that i shouldn't worry about ryan because i was sure he'll come with me. but now, he's gained success on his own and i wouldn't want to cut it short. so i won't impose anything on him when it comes to working overseas. i'm so proud of what he's achieved now. :) i hope i can say the same for myself. i am a product of a dysfunctional family and i do not plan on having another one. i want my family to be complete. running away from this god-forsaken country won't help, it'll just make matters worse. i dunno how long i'll have to wait. but i'm sure as hell that i deserve so much more. i don't mean to brag but i know who i am and what i can offer. i hope that somewhere out there, someone will see me as a big fish in a pond where only brainless worms exist.

Off to Vietnam!

I'll be flying out again on Monday. Yes! I love to travel. Someday I'll be so rich and fly to Europe. Yeah!

One for September

I haven't written anything in a while. So here goes...

So far, so good. I have not encountered any trouble this month. Whew! In fact, I am so excited. I have dropped a few pounds and I'm so relieved that I'm now out of the overweight range. Look, I am serious this time. I will try to do weekly runs with Nicole, my friendly officemate, who encouraged me to run for 1 hour straight, no stops at all - except for that one moment when a lady asked for directions and we had to jog in place while saying we don't have any idea. Hahaha. I'll probably run with her again this week if my workload doesn't get in the way. I have straightened my hair, finally. I could no longer take having permed hair. I'm glad it's over but I'm a bit depressed for having Ryan spend another huge amount for the sake of my vanity. Wub chu!

Anyway, Ryan has asked about my ring size! That's like a huge deal. He also asked the whereabouts of some jewelry stores saying he's already looking into the price range of diamond rings! Oh God! Am I getting married soon? Maybe not so soon. He's just the type of guy who looks so much further into the future, and that's what I love about him. I know we are not getting married yet, but I am certain that I have already found the one - ehem!

He is every girl's dream guy - sweet, caring, thoughtful, and most importantly, he doesn't talk back. Hahaha. He's just my type of guy besides Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Geun Suk, and Jung Yong Hwa. :)

What else? The year is about to end. I'll be turning 24 in 8 months, I feel wrinkles are starting to form on my face - eww! I'm getting so old! Now I understand why women are so bothered with wrinkles. All else is good about my life. I'll be going to Vietnam in 40 days and I am super looking forward to that. I can finally use my new luggage which I specifically bought for my 2nd trip to Seoul scheduled on March 2011. Too eager eh? Well, that's all I can share for now.

Tata!

Optimism

I woke up today having a new-found optimism. I'm usually frustrated as to how things are going but today, I feel different. I managed to hold down a job for a year now and I feel relieved that I have finally proven to myself that I can do it. But there's more to that. Having done so made me realize that I could do whatever I want if I just put my heart into it and never give up. God gave us no limits as to what we can try to achieve. We are the ones who put up our own boundaries. Life isn't easy so we need to work harder and harder each time. I am happy now but I know I could be happier.

I wanna do a lot of other things. I wanna be an excellent photographer not really for the money but for the joy it brings when I capture some really precious moment of other people's lives. I wanna learn how to cook, because someday I'll have kids to feed. I wanna improve my music. I always thought it was a dead end but who knows? Hehehehe. I wanna start my own business. Something I could proudly call my own. I wanna be able to make my own decisions and be happy for the outcome or learn from all the consequences it may bring. I wanna lose weight. Yes, I am fat. Fatter than ever. I'm depressed for not being able to wear my clothes because they no longer fit me. But I'm not about to give them away just yet. I will try hard to get back in shape. I am a fighter and I will win this battle over gluttony. Hahaha. Wish me luck.

And most importantly, I wanna travel the world, see it for what it is and learn from all the experience. In order to do this, I must save, a whole lot. I've always wanted to be rich and famous but I guess I'm dropping the hope for fame now and concentrate on being wealthy instead. Hahaha. I do not wish for millions of money, I just want what's enough for me and my family so we can live a comfortable life just like how my parents did for all of us.

I could get angry at the world sometimes but that's not the point. The point is, I could never appreciate success if I was never put down. So thanks to y'all who've caused me pain and suffering. I feel better now in hopes of getting back at you someday. Peace!

I wanna run away.

I want to leave. Run. As far away as my feet could take me. But when I think about leaving everything behind, I begin to question myself - is it what I really want? I don't want to leave anything. I wish I could take 'em all and start a new life. In a new place. In a new environment. I love challenge. I love new things. I love starts but I hate endings. So I guess I'm stuck.