Me :)

what most people don't know about me:

- i don't eat much, but i get fat easily (seriously, you guys think i'm masiba but i'm really not, magana lang talaga ako kumain hihihi)
- i love to sing!!! (but i'm shy, so i sing to myself)
- i could be conyo too (pa-jologs lang talaga ako hahaha, i'm saving it for interviews and stuff hahaha)
- i can't get over jacob black (este taylor lautner)
- i used to looove the backstreet boys (i know their every song, geez!)
- i play nice almost all the time (even when i'm super pissed)
- uber paranoid
- lola's girl
- i could take pix of my dog all day long
- sicky
- the reason why i'm coming to korea is because of boys over flowers :)
- i always go for the underdog (jacob=dog haha)
- hates know-it-alls
- ma-pride
- walang magawa sa buhok
- currently having wardrobe problems (wala ng kasha eh aww)
- quitter unless pushed (so push me harder!)
- impulsive
- loves to dance but isn't good at it aww
- wishes she had lady gaga's voice
- my ultimate dream career: to sing and get paid for it, i think i could do it all day, non-stop coz it's what i love! :)


if you know all these things about me, then we're tight! hahaha we're probably bestfriends or lovers so you shouldn't have wasted time reading this haha! til my next post. see ya!

random things

my mom is eyeing the new chevy spark, i hope someday i can buy her a car. she's always the one buying me stuff so i wanna be rich enough to get her a new car. in 2006 she bought me a car and i couldn't be any happier. :) so i wanna return the favor soon. so help me GOD. i really don't need much right now. it's just those times when i get too impulsive without thinking about the consequences of my unplanned spending. before the week ended, i was really upset and i needed a quick upper so i bought a shirt and necklace from the nearby tiangge during lunch break hahaha.

a few weeks ago, i met a very pleasant man - the former DGM. i don't know but i really think he's nice just by listening to what he had to say during the seminar. and he shook my hand not once, but twice. hahaha. i forgot what was "nice to meet you" in japanese so i just smiled back at him.

a month ago, i think, i had the scariest dream ever. i was in moa when a tsunami came and swept us away. i was pretty sure i died in that dream. i guess the recent typhoons are partly to blame for this terrifying dream. typhoon santi scared me more than ondoy because my locked door opened itself due to the strong wind.

i don't like bree buckley and elle from gossip girl. elle is also renee in one tree hill. she played two slut roles. why? hehehe. also the new girl from mercy west who has been bugging alex karev.

when the shuttle drivers use their radio i often hear "mike delta" which i think stands for mcdo. "sting ray", "delta sierra", "don robert", etc. what are they trying to say? hahaha. i can't stop thinking about it. hahaha...

i can't find my eye medication - tobradex, where are you? come back to me. i found out someone is named "ernalyn" damn, how does it feel to have a name synonymous to shit? peace! it's just that gay people call shit erna hahaha.

what does *67 do?

oh no it's monday again! gotta go!

i hate goodbyes

well i guess everyone does. but not as much as i do. everyone can tell that i am overly sensitive. i could never deny that no matter how hard i try. it's bad enough that i'm feeling sick today, what made it worse was that nasty comment. i guess it was just a misunderstanding. but i was hurt whichever way you put it. i am a person with very low self-esteem. i haven't accomplished much in life that i could be proud of. so yes, i am very insecure. i tend to keep to myself and open up only to carefully chosen people, those i could surely trust. well, today was supposed to be happy. but it went kinda awful.

it's true what peyton sawyer said: people always leave. you cannot count on them to be there for you forever. one day, you'll find yourself all alone and it's sad and frustrating and it will almost make you wanna give up but you gotta stand on your own feet and deal with it. otherwise you will lose it all. everything you've worked hard for. yes, it's difficult. yes, things may kinda go crazy. you will probably cry in front of people or choose to hide your emotions. but either way, you'll have to deal with it on your own. you're lucky if you have a family like mine. they always make me wanna bring out the best in me despite the challenges that come my way.

i hate goodbyes.

i wish there never was any of it in this world. but what kind of world is that? if everything was perfect, then there'd be no motivation left in our souls to keep going. so i guess obstacles are what we really need for us grow as individuals.

the search for the right keyboard

last week i bought a new keyboard for my tv use. since it was the notebook type, i thought it would be much better since i'm used to my laptop keys. however, the keys were designed in a said a-shape because the human hand is supposed to be positioned that way, not the straight way we've all gotten used to. so i practiced using it while i facebooked all day long taking care of my farm and while keeping myself updated with all the news about my family and friends. however, i found myself kinda tired by forcing my hand to stay that way for me to be able to press the right keys as i typed. also, the fact that it wasn't positioned properly since it wasn't elbow-level made it even harder for me. so before the weekend, i planned to have it replaced by the standard keyboard that my hands have grown accustomed to especially now i have been using the standard one at the office.

i came back to the store to look for a replacement however, they didn't have one. so i decided to purchase something that isn't branded from cdr-king. it's cheap and i don't think i would mind that much if it didn't work out between the two of us. hehehe. as for the replacement issue, my mom got new creative speakers in exchange for my initial keyboard purchase. so much for farmville on my tv, i had to go through long lines just to find the "perfect" keyboard which i don't think exists. hahahaha.

my mom and i grabbed some food before we left the mall and here i am now, writing a blog just for the sake of testing my new brand-less keyboard from cdr-king. i hope it lives for at least a year or so. hahahaha.

that's about it. i'm hoping for a great day ahead. cheers! ;)

ps: these cuties would have made my day. hahahahaha. can someone give me one of these please? hehehehe. :)

i'm mad, yes i am - coz you're a bitch, yes you are

to y'all bitches who don't seem to treat me right, i've had enough. now y'all must get the treatment you deserve. i've been nice to y'all, still you treat me like shit. i smile all the time to encourage you to smile back but to no avail. this isn't high school. this is real life for christ's sake. damn. didn't you know it takes more muscles to frown than to smile? plus the fact that it's just plainly much more pleasant than bitching around. i just don't get it. y'all aren't even great yet. great ones are expected to have unreachable egos. but you? heck no. must i put you in the right place or shall you do it yourselves? humility gets you to places. admit your mistakes and don't dare to cover them up and rant about irrelevant shit just deviate from the main subject. i'm no hater, you are. i do not want to live through the day when i'll have to please you when it obviously makes me wanna vomit. trust me, i won't be there to save your ass. i'll just let you fall flat on your face to make you realize how a bad a person you've become. maybe then you'll wake up one morning and decide to fix your life. i, too, can wear pretty clothes, carry expensive bags, walk the walk and talk the talk. i don't even need to put that much make-up, and i'll be better off than you. so just quit it. - just some mad thoughts *peace*

today's recap

i woke up to ryan's call saying he's on his way. i was still so sleepy and wanted to rest for a few more minutes but i remembered i better harvest to maximize the time on farmville. i'm currently so addicted to it, now that i can see my farm growing hahaha. at first i didn't think i would like it, i remember kunie urging me to try out farmtown, but then i found farmville better. so that was what i did the moment i woke up. i turned on my pc and harvested then planted some more to be harvested when i get home after our happy date.

he got here in no time, i wasn't even ready yet. so he played with chusy while waiting for me. then we were off to lunch. he suggested we eat at charbroiled here in bf. so we ordered our usual fave stuff. then off to atc. we bumped into raisa and ula at the cinemas. they were going to see the ugly truth. i wanted to watch that movie too but due to time constraints, i decided not to. i was planning to go to the salon and i need an hour or two for that. most importantly, i wanted to do some endless window shopping. yes, just window shopping. i don't have much money so this is all i can do. torture myself even more by looking at the things i want to buy but can't at the moment. hahaha. poor shane...

anyway, we went to town for ryan's manga. they didn't have it at the fort so he wanted to check it out here. he was able to buy what he needed pero sayang kasi i din't have my discount card. next time i'm with him, i will never leave it at home. hahaha. sayang din kasi. hahahaha. here i go again, the kuripot me. then we looked at the new cellphones. omg. i badly wanted a new one. but i knew i had no choice. i had to save if i wanted to go to korea next year. yes, that's my ultimate short-term goal. korea. and bangkok take 3 on the side, just for shopping. hahaha. i need to save at least 5 grand each month in preparation for those trips. so i really don't think i would be able to buy a new cellphone for now.

as usual, ryan went to datablitz to check out "those games" while i checked out the price of a wireless keyboard and mouse. it was over my budget so i settled for the wired one. it's just for the tv anyway. i have a laptop but i wanted a separate keyboard to be used for my tv while playing my upsized farmville on our 32" and 40" lcd tvs. hahaha. the luxury of life. this is what i do during weekends. i download and watch tv series and facebook all day long. and if i have some time left, i would ask my mom to go to the mall with me during saturdays coz sundays are reserved for ryan hahaha.

then off to sm for the cellophane treatment. my hair didn't change much. it was still black with just a hint of some orangey thing. it was labeled tangerine and i was sorta scared that i might look like a clown after the treatment but it's as if nothing happened. my hair just felt softer and a bit shinier. still, i wanted some more color. so i plan to have my hair colored in decemeber. i do not mind spending some for things like these. but i really need to stick to my monthly budget if i want to get to korea.

we got home and ate pizza, played with chusy then ryan had to go. aww, til next weekend. overall, it was a fine day. i got to do the things that i planned for and i guess i'm ready for the work-week ahead. wish me luck! ;)

what's up

surprisingly, i'm feeling good about what i do. and i think things are getting better. i have to keep this up. i need to make something of myself. to turn myself into someone that my family would surely be proud of. i think i'm headed to the right direction. i almost gave up much too soon. but thanks to my mom, she made me go for it.

anyway, ryan and i are handling the new pattern pretty well. meaning, our usual daily / every-other-day togetherness has now been replaced by weekly bonding. at first, even thinking about it is depressing but now i guess i've gotten used to it. plus, we are able to save much more! :) although we splurge each time we see each other knowing that we haven't gone out the entire week, i guess it's more practical than our routine back when i didn't have work. despite all this, we haven't grown apart. we're still ryan and shane who share true love :)

on a different note, i really think kim bum is super cute. i didn't really go crazy over him while watching boys over flowers because i had my eyes on kim hyunjoong. but seeing him on tv here in manila made me think, "damn, he's cute!" while others are going gaga over lee min ho, i remained loyal to ji hoo but now i'm quite torn because of kim bum's smile hahaha.




what the heck, he's just a kid. he's like just 20. hahaha. but maja is super lucky to have him as a partner for a commercial. i'll definitely watch out for that. when i was a kid, i used to be a super fan of boybands with all those cute/handsome guys. now that i'm 22, i can't believe i haven't changed a bit. well, i'm no longer a fan of those that i used to like. my current eye candies would have to be the guys from boys over flowers. hahaha. i kinda wish they all went to manila but i'm relieved they didn't send kim hyunjoong to be paired with maja. i would have died of jealousy. hahaha. ryan please don't get mad. they're cute, yes. but i love only you. hahahahaha. sobrang cheezy kuya ayan. anyway. i just had to write something otherwise i would have exploded with all these thoughts about the cute members of f4.

i feel like a loser now for everything that i've written here but who cares? hahaha it's really a great show. watch it and you'll see what i mean. hahahahaha. gotta go gotta go see yah :) wish me luck!

to prevent ants from...

a few days ago, i found ants crawling in and out of my laptop. i had no idea where they came from. maybe they got in there because i left my laptop open. i was clueless. i seldom eat or drink near my laptop and i placed it nowhere near anything that could attract ants. for like two days, i waited for the last ant to get out. i searched the internet and found out that ants in laptops are actually experienced by a lot of other individuals. so i looked for some advice on what they did to get rid of them.

some said to bring it to a service center and have it cleaned thoroughly, meaning, disassembling the whole thing. i wasn't really planning to do that until the second day when i found some of them still in there. i read some wise advice. to put sugar beside the laptop so that ants would crawl out and go directly to the sugar. i've killed a lot of them and after the sugar thing, 3 big ones got out. i'm guessing one of them was their queen. i read that if you take the queen down, the rest will follow. haha. after that, i didn't see any other ant. ;) what a relief! i searched for laptop sleeves over the net to protect my laptop from ants and other insects, or from dust. i went to the mall and found out that they were overly priced. so i went to cdr king knowing they sell cheap stuff (the ones they're selling are priced at P180) but they didn't have one that fits my laptop in the design and color that i want. so i went to the department store and i found the one. hehe.

i took a picture of it. it's cute and affordable at P249.75 compared to the others which ranged from P600-P2,000 up. my laptop came with a bag but it's too bulky and i don't really wanna put it in there each day and take it out time again since i use it a lot. so i really wanted a sleeve. i'm so glad i found one. ;) it was a tiring search but was worth my patience, and my mom's. ;) cheers!

sick but still hot

kim hyun joong - the hottest sick man *wink*

having H1N1, you can't expect someone to look so hot

What If? - posted last June 7, 2009

what if someone you thought you knew turned out to be a totally different person?
would you be able to accept it?

what if you found out that that person ruined the very foundation of you entire well-being?
would you be able to forgive?

what if your existence depends on that person?
would you have kept even the slightest bit of gratitude?

what if that person just didn't have any choice?
would you at least try to understand?

what if you're uncertain as to the best answers?
would you have done nothing?

what if all you could ever do is cry and feel sorry for yourself?
would you pretend everything is totally fine?

what if you decide to just move on with life as if nothing's wrong?
would you have peace of mind?

what if you never had this person in your life?
would life be not as miserable as it is now?

Congratulations, Kris!!! - posted last May 21, 2009

when matt was voted off, i told myself that i'm left with no other reason to continue watching the show. but i just had to be sure that danny never wins. hahaha. i know i'm being mean but i just don't think he's idol material. so i went ahead and supported kris while my mom chose adam. it's not like i'm no longer loyal to matt. i still think he's my american idol. however, let us not rob kris of his joyous victory. he seems to be such a really nice guy and i have absolutely no problem with him, hahaha, rose ann and i even woke up early to vote for him. kung alam ko lang na pwede pala mag-vote dito sa pinas for free edi sana noon ko pa binoto si matt hanggang dumugo daliri at tenga ko kaka dial at kaka tawag. aww. oh well, congrats, kris! and good luck matt. i hope you guys both come up with great albums. :) napa "aww" talaga ako when kris hugged his wife towards the end of the show. ang sweet. "sobrang cheezy!!!" hahahaha. :) yehey. good luck din kay adam. :) mukha naman sha mabait kahit na madami kabadingan chismis sa kanya. :) we'll be waiting for the next season. i hope manalo naman yung pambato ko next time. :)

Kris' shocked face, can't believe he won. :)

The cutest and sweetest gift I've ever heard of.

16th Monthsary - posted last May 21, 2009

went out, had lunch, with chusy. :) ang hirap pala ng may alaga habang nasa mall. hahahahaha. :) madrama kahapon pero hindi ko na elaborate. basta. buti nalang masaya naman kami nila chusy kahapon sa mall. yehey. :) ang bait nga nya kahapon sa chair. hindi malikot. hehehe. tapos pinapainom ko pa sha sa cap ng water bottle ko. baka kasi uhaw na eh. aww. yun lang. :)

Blog Entry Oh come on... you can't kill George & Izzie! - posted last May 20, 2009

the season finale of grey's anatomy was a total shocker. ok, i heard rumors about izzie and george leaving the show but i never imagined him being hit by a bus trying to save a woman who is now convinced that george is her prince charming. oh my god... george please don't leave. i read someone said "RIP Dr. O'Malley," oh please... you can't kill him just like that. he's one of the best characters on the show. please keep him. and i really hope izzie lives. this is so depressing. i loved how they disregarded izzie's dnr and how john doe let meredith know who he really was. oh poor george. :( now i can't wait for the next season to air and find out what really happened to these characters i super love. aww. :(

Blog Entry Izzie Marries Alex - posted last May 10, 2009

Five seasons, 100 episodes after... I think this one's the best. I cried my eyes out over this episode when Alex and Izzie got married instead of Derek and Meredith. I didn't expect this at all. I was really hoping they would finally tie the knot but they gave Izzie her perfect wedding which I think is the sweetest thing they can do for Izzie, especially with her condition.

I've seen a lot of different tv dramas but I love Grey's Anatomy above everything else and I wouldn't want Izzie to die, or George to leave. I want them all. Plus, I also love Mark and Lexie's relationship.

Hehehe. :) Anyway, Derek and Meredith better get married soon. :)

why oh why??? - posted last Apirl 29, 2009

matt is gone. i'm devastated. i hate it. i want danny out. sobrang yabang nya. what the f***? saying he can see the finish line??? shame on you. you're not gonna win. i'd rather see kris or adam win rather than you gokey. i'm so affected by matt's elimination. it feels like elliott yamin's all over again. damn.

well... i still love matt no matter what. now i can feel oan's pain seeing anoop go last week.

Chusy's New Cut - posted last April 28, 2009

nakaka-tamad na kasi i-pony yung buhok nya tapos kinakamot lang din nya edi natatanggal din. sayang lang effort ko. kaya ayan, gupitin nalang. hehehehe. :)

HELP!!! - posted last April 21, 2009

i'm buying a laptop very soon. which brand should i go for?

toshiba? compaq? acer? lenovo?

please comment below.

thanks. :)

Thank God they saved Matt - posted last April 16, 2009

When I found out about the new rule regarding the judges' save, I thought that it wasn't fair because it alters America's votes. I just didn't think it was right. When you gotta go, you gotta go... That was me then. Until last night when Matt's performance disappointed me. It's not like he wasn't great. He just lacked that certain spice. From the moment the show ended last night, I was pretty sure he'd be down at the bottom 3.

Today, I was so eager to check the results online only to find out that the judges have already used their "one save". I read that they used it on Matt. OMG. I was so happy and thankful to whoever came up with that save thing. I definitely think that Matt just had an off night last night and I'm certain he can perform better than that. We all know that - that's why the judges saved him in the first place.

I just hated Simon for stating that he doesn't see Matt winning the competition. Simon, why did you even save him if he wasn't worth it? You could have waited another week to use your save. Admit it. Matt deserved it. Period. He doesn't have to go. And I hope that he performs so much better next week so he doesn't get to be one of the two people to be sent home and to prove to the judges that they made the right choice. :)

Thank you Lord for keeping Matt.

(OA pero basta. I like him. I want him to win. )

Ipilan Days - posted last April 14, 2009

(In the photo: Tita Tes, Me, Zaira, and their dog. She looks like Marley, right? Her name is Butching Hehehe. I have no idea how they came up with that name. *WINK*)

When I realized how long 6 days would be, I started thinking about things I could do to make it seem shorter. I knew I had nothing to do while in San Antonio because Binang won't be there and I really didn't want to go out much. But when Tito Imboi said that Tita Tes had internet connection, I was more than happy. Hehehe.

So each night we would go to their house and teach Zaira how to use her new computer bought by Tito Ciso. Zaira is my 11-year-old second cousin and she's really smart. Hehehe. She has a huge collection of medals she received since she started schooling.

I really don't spend much time with them before because Ipilan is more or less a 10-15 minute walk from our street and knowing me, I'm too lazy to walk. Hahaha. But Tito Imboi would bring Adjie and I to Ipilan and spend each fun night there. We even got close to Amie, one of the kids we grew up with in San Antonio.

We would sing, eat, drink and play all night. It was so much fun.

Now that I'm back in Manila, I can't wait to go back there and spend more time in Ipilan. Hehe. Now I can remember what I used to feel when I was younger... how much I wanted to stay there for good - where life is slow, simple but happy. :)

Happy Family :)

Photos were taken last Feb. 16, 2009 expect for the last pic of Chusy taken on her 3rd month.

Before and After

Today, I finally did it. After so many days of soul-searching. Hahaha. Exagg! Last Saturday, Oan said that my hair has grown so long and that I had to cut it. Hahaha. But I love my hair. I know it's not pretty and all but I love it. It's like my security blanket. Something to cover my imperfections. So I just couldn't get rid of it.

I browsed for pix of haircuts I think would suit me but I ended up telling the stylist to keep it layered and long. At the back of my head I was like, "If you want things to stay the same, then you shouldn't have gone to the salon!"

But she said, "Hmm... 4 1/2 inches?" WTF!!! My limit was 3 inches. I bargained for 3 1/2 but she said 4 1/2 would be best. To my surprise, I found myself saying, "Okay..." - submissively. I've known the stylist since highschool. Not that we were friends. It's just that I choose her everytime I go there since she's not 'bading'. No offense ha, but most badings think they know what's best for you and decide to cut your hair their way - truly against your wishes. So I want a girl as a stylist because they tend to be more understanding of your needs and limitations.

Today, this woman pushed me to 4 1/2 inches or even more. I was definitely caught off-guard. At the end of it, I faced the mirror and was shocked. It's not as short as what people might think. But for me, I felt my hair was all gone. But Ryan said this is the best cut he's seen me in. Aww. :) Sometimes, I think he's just saying nice things just to comfort me, but I have a strong feeling he's telling the truth this time. Hahaha. :)

Anyway, I love my hair though it's shorter, I'm sure it'll grow back soon. :)

Here's the before pic. Taken yesterday - March 22, 2009

Now here are the after pic/s. What do you guys think? Honesty is the best policy. :)
(Back)

(Front)

MATT GIRAUD FOREVER!!!

I love Matt!!! He reminds me of how I felt for Elliott Yamin starting from the very first audition til the season progressed. Humble but super talented. I am hoping he wins this season. Compared to Danny and Adam, I think Matt is the best - soulful and classy! :)

I hope I can vote for him too. Aww. :(

I miss Elliott!!! Come back here!

I aslo like Megan a lot. I hope she stays. I'm guessing it's Michael Sarver's turn to go, if not, uh-oh - it's gonna be a big surprise tomorrow!!! Can't wait! Good luck everyone. :)

Eliminations - 1st Round

This season, I'm really having a hard time choosing who to send home. They're all very talented unlike in past seasons when it was somehow such an ease to think of someone who wouldn't make the cut in a snap of a finger.

But last night, I was just so nervous for all of them. All of them were great but I must agree, Jasmine and Jorge didn't pick songs that best suited their voice and personality. I'm feeling really sad that their journey was cut short. I just can't help but feel sorry for both of them since they looked sincerely nice. Very humble and seems to be unaware of how much talent they've got. I've never been a fan of overconfident people no matter how great they are because if they're that great, then there's certainly no reason to brag or show off, right?

Well, all the best for Jasmine and Jorge - I hope they continue pursuing their dream.

My Welcome Back Cake

I got back from Hongkong last Friday and yesterday Ryan came with a box of cake in his hands. My mom was like, "Ano yang hawak mo?" Kasi wala namang occasion or anything. Haha. Yun pala it's my welcome back cake. So I said, aalis na nga lang ako lagi para lagi akong may cake. Hahaha.

But seriously, I think it's so sweet of him to go out of his way just to bring me something. Aww. I love him so much. He's the greatest guy ever! :) I missed him everyday I was away. Thanks Yanyan! :)

Are we still *sweet*?

I asked.

"Yes, of course we are!," he said sincerely then hugged me tight.

"Well, that's all I needed to hear." then I sighed with a smile. :)

Hit and Run

okay. i'm really really extremely sorry i hit your car - or so it seems

i didn't hurt anyone (aside from the feelings of the owner of that car who probably knows now that someone hit his car which happens to be parked at the worst place he could have thought of)

i was backing and i didn't see it. wow! it was right there and i didn't notice it - well, until i heard my car smash against something!

we didn't even look back. my mom said we had to leave the scene right away so no one could get a glimpse of my plate number - oh yes, it's my plate number once again, always the culprit. hahaha

i immediately checked out the damage of my car and i found something really noticeable. i was like wtf? how hard was it? did i ruin that other person's car that bad? or even worse?

i was freaking out. then ate laida told me that the damage on my car which i thought was caused by my carelessness was made by adjie. (he didn't even bother to let me know, what a ****?!!!) ate laida said that while my car was silently parked inside the garage, my brother was trying to park the van and he hit my car coz he was supposedly drunk that morning. she said the whole thing has been there since december. wtf? i didn't even notice it at all.

so i guess, i never really hit a car. but i ran away. i was really scared. i checked out my car if i had any other new damages (ha! i have a lot you know), and i found out there were none, so i was thinking, what was that that i hit? was it just a piece of can lying around? i dunno - really.

i'm just hoping i didn't really hit someone else's car. if i did, i'm so sorry i was too chicken-sh*t to run away. i know i'm a girl and all but that's no excuse. i should know how to drive carefully. but i must admit, i can be a crazy driver most of the time.

so drive safely girls and boys! :)

something to say in a subtle way

okay. i can't sleep. but i just have one more thing to say before i go.

what is wrong with you?! i really don't get it. why? hahaha.

are u blind or something? can't you at least pick what suits you best?

i just don't understand. hahaha. well... good luck with that. that's all i can say. :)

More confused than ever over one trivial thing...

thursday night until friday morning i was contemplating whether i'm gonna visit ryan's mom or not. of course, i sincerely plan to but my car is coding. argh. if i was to leave the house, i should be there before 7am. meaning, i had like just 2 hours of sleep if i was to leave the house past 5am. talk about haggard-ness. haha. so i asked him, what do u think? should i go friday or saturday?

another concern was that my family is going to nueva ecija and i wanted to go with them... so i was really torn apart. i kept texting him i'm going then take it back, then text him again saying i'll go then take it back again. it went on and on until i fell asleep on a final note that i wasn't. haha. i even consulted my brother on what i should do when he arrived at 2:30am. if i wasn't coding, i could have gone friday, right? then i could leave with my family saturday...

hmm... so what happened was, i woke up past 10am (friday) then i saw his messages saying his mom is fine and all, what a relief. he was really worried last night, he even asked me to look up his horoscope to fish on what could happen to his mom. so what i did was i got horoscopes for that day and the next. hahaha. i kept on telling him not to worry much but knowing how praning he can get, i just kept reassuring him, even bringing back past stories when my mom and lola got hospitalized but made it out healthier than ever. it somehow gave him optimism. hehe.

anyway, in a few hours, my family will be leaving. and i'll be all alone. now i can go and visit his mom at the expense of not being able to join my family aww... well, i just wanna be there for him like he was for me during all those time when i felt my whole world was crashing down on me. aww... i know this entry is getting mushier than ever so i'm sorry for all those who read it. haha. i just had no one to talk to right now since everyone's asleep including him. aww... so trivial as it may seem... sinisisi ko ang pesteng plate number. *bow*

BLAH BLAH BLAH

When it's over, it really is
Don't you ever attempt, even the slightest bit
To revive something you used to have
Because now it's gone

There's no point in turning back
So don't even try to say a word
For you deserve nothing more
But a handful of regrets

You may say life's cruel
Well it just came back at you
You may be bitter for all I care
When it's done, it's done... so just be gone

Plans

Ryan and I just got back from Tagaytay and now we're planning yet another get-away for Valentine's Day. I immediately thought of Ilocos as our destination but it's too far and I suppose we won't be allowed to go there alone. Then he suggested to visit Corregidor. :) I looked it up and made a call. So I guess we'll be going there. I'm not that sure though. I really hope this trip pushes through!!! I'm so excited. :)

Who's the loser now?

Hahahahaha!!!

HAPPINESS... As I See It

Being able to say you're happy means you have been through both sad and happy times.

So now, you are able to distinguish one from the other. Meaning, when you say you're happy, it must be true since you now know the difference between the two.

When you're happy, you expect others to at least be happy for you and not for them to question your happiness. It gets kinda frustrating but guess what... you don't have to prove anything to anyone. Them haters should just shove their pathetic thoughts up their %%%. Hahaha!

Well... that's it. I just had to say something about it. I cannot say anything more.

If I Were A Boy

i really love this song. when i first saw it on tv last december, i noted it down for downloading. however i just didn't find the time to do so until today when we bought an ipod for adjie. i searched for its lyrics and i loved it even more. girls, read the lines carefully - the song would really make you wish you were a boy at some point. *wink*

If I Were A Boy lyrics

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong


But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…